Thursday, February 01, 2007
it totally hit me that day, when TYL hit me with texts like,
"Remember you once told me that ..."
"But what if ..."
......
Yes I remember.
But somehow, ive forgotten.
Ive forgotten how its never been any harder to fall. Ive forgotten how survival instincts kicked me, telling me to hold on (lifebuoy excluded). Ive forgotten the taste of threemealsaday on a diet of hope.
Maybe because in this stupor and numbness sensation, theres this deprivation from the power to feel. or so i guess.
i can only tell her now that this is just another sweep and it'll be fine.
isnt this pattern obviously apparent (note: double entry intended) enough?
thats just where it hit me.
i thought ive thrown it away, watching it wash away, washed offshore.
who would have thought that it actually, floats?
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what ifs, what ifs ...
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kayly/
chuanyee.